What am I?

In this world of self-identification, self-medication, self-doubt, and self-harm I often wonder...what am I? I've always dated men until recently. I had a few sexual escapades with a few women, which I completely enjoyed, but never a relationship with. I coined myself as Bisexual, which I guess I still am, I've had sex with both men and women and am attracted to both and open to a relationship with both.

But now I'm in my first "lesbian relationship." I've been dating a woman for roughly 6 months now and I'm very happy with her. She may be the best relationship prospect I've had yet on many levels. But it is still a bit foreign to be dating a lesbian and yet I myself feel I have one foot in and one foot out of gay culture. She is gay. She only dates women. Only has sex with women and is only interested in women. I've already stated that I'm equal opportunity.

Yet I feel the desire to click with a community, and I guess I click more with the gay community right now than straight community. I mean fuck, I can pick up a copy of cosmo still but why? It will tell me about the makeup and clothes I drool over but also tell me how to please my man? I don't have or need a man, thanks anyway. But I fear I'd be shunned from the gay community as well because I'm new at a gay relationship and I'm not entirely gay...I just happen to be in a gay relationship.

I want to read a magazine I can relate to, that the relationship stories and advice actually apply. Yet don't want to look like a hypocrite by reading a magazine I may not have the street cred to buy.

This sounds stupid doesn't it? But I'm left questioning who or what I am and where do I fit in?